Monday, December 14, 2015

Snow Carol Caroled, Stars Within

[for Christ on His birthday-

and for George Herbert and Henry Vaughn...
poets of blessed memory]

love falls away as from the skies
the pearls of former loveliness reprised
return to glaze the dreaming ground

and glide soft stars so all around.
so all around I want to be where
love in crystal surety sings undefiled

and all, for me!

the Mystery

That love is falling from the skies
and we who grew so worldly wise
beyond the din can feel within

the lovely loveliness of God our Friend
that now so gently does descend
our brokenness this way to mend.

mary angela douglas 14 december 2015

Sunday, December 13, 2015

It Won't Be My Fault

I'm in the rosarium-solarium,
rose arbor, rose harbour wearing
my new rose dress and

carrying a small bouquet of (you guessed it)
wondering whom to address
on the rose promenade.

or dabbing a rose pomade on my tresses
before the art deco mirror with its golden
cunning border of-

yes, I confess it, and you know the rest.
and I'm frying up petals for breakfast, you
know, the best

and if they don't name me Rose Queen at
the pageant this year,
it certainly won't be my fault...

(on second thought in my new rose dress, I wasn't actually IN the rose harbour)

mary angela douglas 13 december 2015

Some Problems Concerning Translation Of A Single Language Into Itself

when I say "rose" you read it in a different colour
when I breathe "sky" you think it is full of light but
it's a nocturne that I only

heard
all my life.

what if I wrote it's a midnight rainbow,
midnight's rainbows causing me delight
though I live nowhere near the Northern Lights

and you do.
you'd fill in the blanks, wouldn't you?
and is it true like they always sing:

we see
the same moon.
do we?

when the moon shines to herself
so many names.

mary angela douglas 13 december 2015

Saturday, December 12, 2015

The Marine Coloured Winds, The Curtains Blowing

the pastel coloured winds
in shades of marine
ruffle of dreams

by the water; my dream
of the wraparound porch
with the honeysuckle vines;

my green perfumes; my hidden signs
disperse, webbed in gold
on the surfaces

of things, of the waters
in my dreams in marine colors.
more, moire, in their thin disguise

clouds beckon me early, on the day
they rise, in the summers before
who could recognize

you had gathered your gardenia sighs for
the last summer that winds
in marine colours could shear the

curtains at the window; float
near the waters as if
they were sentient

sails

mary angela douglas 12 december 2015

I See Hawthorne's Scar

I see Hawthorne's scar in the winter sky:
the cloud gashed light
and we will gather this harvest in

my soul and I yet, if God wills.
the scar will blend into a Night
that cannot vary and where

the summer birds unwarily take flight
too late descending toward the flowery clime.
these portents driven in the sound,

along the strange and rocky coves
of what has been, pale wreckage! floating
off the Main; Heart-bound, not Land! and

scavengers will come who'll never understand
a century too late and remonstrate
and strive so each with each

to claim a dread treasure.

but we know it does not avail
who wait upon the stare of old ghosts;
that where the stars set, chill

refractions lash unceasingly
the haunted prayerless mind-
and pilgrim blanched,

the sun oh cannot
cannot find us
where we ignore

Divine glory-
and take the mantle on ourselves.

mary angela douglas 12 december 2015 

So Much Depends

so much depends
on a yellow glass candy dish
filled to the brim

and capped by a lid
with a golden knob
and will you lift the lid or not

or when

and choose hard candies
jewel like in the night,
painted with flowers or

ribbon bright and the crunch
coincides with the crunch of snow
of course

it's that euphonious, our Christmas;
Christmases I will make of you one necklace:
tulip bulb lights, the laughter of the

angels out of sight; the house near
the tinseled woods fades shining from my sight
across the street in snow or not

where we can no longer go
I sob.
I sob.

mary angela douglas 12 december 2015

St. Cecilia On Her Way At Christmas And Always

[to Sharon F. Douglas thinking of her at an early piano]

you will eat spumoni from a crystal dish
or pick out favorites from your Grandmother's candies
musical repertoire repertoire you sang

so happy home from college
in your forte
I have left these arias here

and November clouds scudding snow
and all I know of the wind.
could fill a thimble smiled

my sister in her musical way
it blows the colours down
like God's own kites and

sparkles in our doorways
making them Christmas
every day

I cried into my handkerchief
embroidered with the letter "A"
it's for angels, anyway,

the golden apples watched over by night
by night the angels sang in apricot concert
in the diffident night and we said

Jesus is not dead he lives in us
whenever we sing though everyone
looks at us and thinks we

can't know anything anything at all
about music.

mary angela douglas 12 december 2015

I Do Not Take It To Heart

[to the Indian poet Chumki Sharma for her beautiful poem "Running Away With The Garden"]

just for this space of, perhaps, a cloud's, hair's breadth,
filament not meant to be on fire or at the music's
rest in the score

before the tumultuous passage; it's
then sad angels retreat and draw their colours in
and the earth grows blank by God's decree

as if under snows

and the poets are even more understated than
they were before, so dormant is everything.
there in that space a small bird sings or several

in the cold and I am marveling again alone
and glad to be at the song before the sparrow freezes
and I do not care that soon the burden will be

impossible to bear and that looks are stony whenever
I start to sing because the angels lift up
on their broad wings

such infinite colours and the pearl of the sky is mine
though you would not think that
to look at her so

the old crones say and the news ones too
but I am the fairy tale (aren't you?) and I do not
take it to heart.

mary angela douglas 12 december 2015

Beautiful Reader

beautiful reader taking on the snow colours where
you walk, the variations in the pearl;
apprehending unheard music

in a hushed world still.
beautiful reader of the pines the guardian streams
half cracked with ice, the glaze on the

words you used to say and then the page
is turned for you by someone else
who knows better who you are they dream

at the agencies, or at the church bazaars
the jazzy intake sessions,
if they dream at all.

who could imagine you held all this within you
world upon world and as you read

it all comes back to you or opens up anew from
a different chapter. long will the gold in the leaf
you pluck in the dim air stay

when used to mark the passages
you loved to play on an old piano
though no one suspects you of such depths

on any day job you may take, bus stop round
that you may make or where you stray
on the sun ridden lot behind the housing projects.

mary angela douglas 12 december 2015

Thursday, December 10, 2015

There Is A Dollhouse In My Head

there is a dollhouse in my head
where I can go and just be fed
on tiny plates with cherry tarts

in shapes of hearts
and it not even
Valentine's day.

and only I can have the key
into my dollhouse mystery
and close the door

and go inside
where books of endless joys
abide

a tiny cat that has no need
but just to purr upon my knee
a chimney brave that has no smoke

but looks so real to dollish folk
that santa claus on  miniature sleigh
is sure to come on Christmas day

and fill my tiny cottage full
with baby oranges, golden hulls
till penny bright I'll say goodnight

and draw the dollhouse curtains all
and sleep my sleep and dream my dream
until the tiny tiny Spring.

mary angela douglas 10 december 2015


Who Is John Whiteside's Daughter

even the bells don't sing her name:
painted in white wash on cotton clouds.
the geese scatter distressed by a 

crystal shadow, at best;
a girl in watercolour skirts the grounds.
who is John Whiteside's daughter

what is an elegy without a name
or was grief for her as weightless
as the questions at the end of the chapter:

[can you explain? what was The Poet
trying to say,the Poet who signed
his name to the Poem; for sure

the Poet whose name endures]
what is a watercolour in the rain,
what is a watercoloured name

dissolving here in a close reading
when parents christen even children
dead on arrival

and etch it in stone, the christening name-
if not in marble or the guilded monuments.
she could have been anyone; a tiny doll soldier

in the tomb of an unknown.
well you know, how did her  mother feel about that?
does anyone know? that's my question.

did she softly cry not wanting to make a scene
what kind of immemorial poem is this
for my little girl...

the angels took it away with them
(I mean, her name)
leaving behind the funeral train, the flowers;

departing with

her light, her apple white hours
where God,at least, Who knew what to call her,

[Alone, alone...the bells intone: she died alone]
as they say in the South,
called her home

mary angela douglas 10 december 2015

P.S. This poem is written as a response to John Crowe Ransom's poem "Bells for John Whiteside's Daughter" which is a strange poem to me and has been for some time much as I generally love his poetry. I finally figured out what bothered me about Ransom's poem. He wrote this poem I guess as an elegy when the young daughter of his friend John Whiteside died. But there is no real feeling of grief for the little girl that died. There is just a pretty, generalized water colour though with lovely fairy tale impressions as he recalls seeing her from an upstairs window. This poem causes me grief every time I read it because the little girl's name is never mentioned in the poem. Even colder, the poem is not even dedicated to her. This to me is going too far in using an event in actual life as a departure point for a poem. Compare the poem with Shelley's elegy for Keats "I weep for Adonis, he is dead o weep for Adonis." and you will see what I mean. John Crowe Ransom's poem is tearless. He is "vexed" as one would be vexed by a simple everyday annoyance. What a callous word to use in the context. "vexed" at a small life taken that can never return.

The one lovely fairytale image and I really do love that image of the little girl in a fairytale cloud and the goose speaking alas murmuring alas seems encapsulated in its own fragile bubble vaulted away from the antiseptic, clipped sophisticated tone of the rest of the poem. I wish Ransom had made a different poem, one connected to the fairy tale cloud but that seems to be what he was fighting in himself, that unabashed lyricism, bringing it under steely control. Perhaps that's what being a "Fugitive" poet was all about.

Her "prim study propped" evokes the appearance of a mummy viewed at an archeological dig where certainly no one is thinking of her as someone's daughter, or even child, having been mourned, but just as a museum curio, artifact. You can almost smell the coroded linen.
You can find John Crowe Ransom's Poem "Bells For John Whiteside's Daughter" online. You cannot find the name of the daughter of John Whiteside online. Well, I couldn't. And I really wanted to find it because I wanted with all my heart to dedicate this poem to her and to her mother both of whom were somehow shut out of John Crowe Ransom's abstractions though he might not have meant that to
happen. Also, of course, "marble or the guilded monuments" is a direct reference to the Shakespeare sonnet.

In Ransom's poem the word "vexed" to describe the feelings of the viewers on seeing her in the casket is monstrous. "Vexed' is English indicates mild annoyance, superficial annoyance. In the face of the death of this very individual little girls very real death the use of the word 'vexed" is monstrous. I do not understand how this poem could be so widely praised; it is his most famous poem and studied for decades in all even basic anthologies of literature from Jr. High School onward.




Wednesday, December 09, 2015

To The Overambitious Poets Or Whatever They're Calling Themselves On Tuesdays

seeing was not like this in Paradise,
however long it lasted.
far less, was dreaming.

this: grasping at straws

picking up pick up sticks
so that others are overawed
and calling it art. making the

human heart not even a valentine
constructed in a grade school classroom
but something oh yes marketable

and will you make a name among the stars

and will the past bow down to you as king
or queen of anything you can get your hands on
known or unknown so as to establish your career, credibility

eminence...,place among the Schools...

may all words flee from you as steppingstones
to your greatness, their weeping launching pads burn to cinders
God! you savage.

silver and golden birds that they are
(the untrammelled)in our dreams, and uncaptive, still.

mary angela douglas 9 december 2015

P.S. I have mixed feelings about this poem and maybe I shouldn't have posted it here. I know ambition is important for human beings and to accomplish something anything in life you have to have a certain kind of ambition. I guess I mean the kind of ambition that doesn't care about other people, places, or things but just gobbles everything up in order to be number one. But it does take some kind of strength and drive to learn more to understand more. I just think it has to be possible to do that without using selfishly other people or things to do it. Even the past has to be honored and not viewed as some kind of thing to be manipulated by us. The misuse of ambition has really hurt a lot of people including the one who is not realizing this I think. Mostly I just don't want to be that kind of person and I pray not to be that person who tramples over others for ANY reason.

We Are The Cherry Sprigged Persons

is it, it isn't too late to dream
we are the cherry sprigged persons
in the picture books

spooning cream with berries
wreathed with art nouveau
or tinted angels on the scene

and breathing home or the
four winds with equanimity
my new word I learned today

she exclaimed and it shines impeccably,
penny bright may this
be the world we never

leave behind
where thoughts are kind
and actions and the only art

is the glass we hold in our hands
that will not spill a drop of magic
but contain it carefully through

all the lies of the outer world the
incriminating scenes the tearful leaving home
unexpectedly

thus in my poem I leave you this small gift
wrapped seven times round with jeweled ribands
and the thrift of saving everything that's bright

for all my dears and the untold dears of God
in generations succeeding
these little stars snipped out for all oh all

your winter nights
and grieving

mary angela douglas 9 december 2015

Tuesday, December 08, 2015

On Shakespeare As Inaccessible

why is he so hard to find
even to read, a little.
each time I climb I fall

back a child before
such steep language.
sometimes the flowery vales

I find and try to rest there
but it beckons onward
so that my heart knows

with Rilke, staying my dear
is nowhere.
no one interpretation satisfies.

and those who simplify him
I think, commit crimes though
they do not mean to

casting him as accessible.
the least of all words I would
ascribe to him. impossible!

and so I start again
the starry slopes to climb
as if to God

and wait on Time and miracle
to read these lines
at last, from the jeweled inside

and weep to read
whatever I can find.

mary angela douglas 8 december 2015

Monday, December 07, 2015

Snowlike, The Supposition Dreams

"Mais où sont les neiges d'antan?"
(where are the snows of yesteryear)
-Francois Villon

the readers of a fine braile
refined; the readers of snow
themselves snow

passing away into mirrors
not of their own
devising; revising

words and do they fall away
like snows beyond the sleeve
of the woods you know, you knew

and will they be renewed
or will they fade frost flowers into
Infinite windows

closed on Earth?

mary angela douglas 7 december 2015

Sunday, December 06, 2015

Off Kilter, Spinning Happily

slightly off balance in my poem
I tilt at rainbows becoming the Top
that spins all colours ice cream edged

and frothed all at the same Time or
nursery-rhymed in the fairy tale,
the wheel itself

humming and humming in the neglected
tower and are all her hours made of flowers
sing the children, meaning the Princess...

this is the sum of it, I try to say

but the words float underwater, away,
you know how it is on the
spindrift days you

are dreaming outloud but still
somehow,
no one can hear you.

mary angela douglas 6 december 2015

The Thirteenth Fairy Or What She Said

[a reimagined fragment from The Sleeping Beauty]

you will live among thorns.
the thorns will smile.
this won't make any difference to you

one way,
or the other.
you will swelter under the gold wrought sun

others make charm bracelets from.
the ferns will curl in your wedding day bouquet;
your one slipper, with its missing pearl,

will be waylaid;did grandmother say
in the demitasse afternoons: sorrow may
come too soon to your soirees

and on the porch steps in the backyard
beside the nasturtiums-
where the carriage of snows sailed away,

you will weep, quietly, rose petals,
rose petals instead

mary angela douglas 6 december 2015

The Jeweled Nightingale Arrives

how hushed the courtiers appear
in paintings of that era.
but not as hushed as death arrives

or snows to blight the
Emperor's rose estate.
they wait...and fanfare grows

to rival anything heard before.
and there it is: with twining jewels,
handcrafted of gold and

bought and sold,
the borrowed tune it plays all day.
and the nightingale flees the Palace

unobserved. an ordinary bird
said some on the outskirts
and no, I cried

while the clouds sighed sunset colours.
that is music as it flies perhaps
returning no more.

alone by the shore;
we live out our mourning.

mary angela douglas 6 december 2015

Saturday, December 05, 2015

How To Disappear And Why

where were you while you were
counting the stars and sizing up the clouds
always they asked the seers

or just the ones who knew
how to disappear
into a clef of leaves

or trebled flowers, please,
I said to the Magician
wanting to be anywhere

but here.
your nose in a book also
they scoff

and toss it off for years and years
and not because
they miss your company.

it's a mystery, I said while my
breathe froze and you didn't notice anyway.
it's a mystery. it's how I live

by living always in a dream
and in the spaces in-between the holidays
even while washing the dishes

in the sink, where rainbow bubbles wink-)

you never stop to think they start to say
but I won't hear today or yesterday;
I'm on the verge "you've haven't heard a word..."

of finding yet another place to stay
free from tirades.brim up with the gold
on my new hat with the cherries...

(and that's the secret, told)

mary angela douglas 5 december 2015

The Angels Will Talk Among Themselves

the angels will talk among themselves;
the angels are not exclusionary.
it's only that, here on earth

who can speak their language?
some poets almost hear,
born with a crystal ear

the snowfalls of their speaking;
and find without even seeing,
intuitive to a fault, in a room

with no candles
the rose gold of the sun behind

the shuttered venetian blind
and a winter apartment's cloud.
am I too loud I asked

the roses underground;
sleeping,am I blind?
I asked the wind

that I may not find you but
only the motion of the grass,
the treetops as you pass

through all this evergreen seeming.
the wind swept on
and so does Song

and high above
Time! Time! the silvered angels sing
in the coinage of rains and what remains:

the shadows of Poetry
falling over me

mary angela douglas 5 december 2015

Wednesday, December 02, 2015

And Ever The Chilled Sunshine In The Painting

[on reading Edgar Allan Poe]

and ever the chilled sunshine in the painting;
the limpid discerning eye;
and doom is dusting the furniture

in the room that resembles a tomb.
what time the sandcastles bloomed
bathed in an unearthly pearl,

there seemed beauty's aura tinted there,
a serene behest and we, her guests.
but prescient page by page we

gradually guess and want to snap the book shut:
what has already crumbled
was a world,

the world to someone

who churns on in a spurned music
and who has no rest
canvassing us from a querulous distance:

with hidden outcomes
and the piano lid down.

we sense only (when we are in tune)
a melancholy happiness has passed
into us while we were tying our shoes,

adjusting a dress, and a lock springs open
near the kitchen cabinets and the coffee cake
for the far removals of a soul

we cannot laugh away;
the disappearing of the light of day
into something else, not night...

and this lament in a bottle will
never quite be stoppered
in a quaint antique shop

where daylight's people chattering
and lunching stop
to linger, fascinated

but must not linger long
where the heart is a miasma
and an unsettling song

you can't get out of your head
whenever
you stroll through rust coloured leaves=

and feel you can take your ease until it is too late
to see you were strolling
below an encroaching sea; a cloudy gate

that shouldn't have been left open.
the margins of battle,for a litte, fade;
the horses return to stall.

but the surrender,
if it is even made-
is not received at all-

and a worn voice cries: o
fasten my heart to sky
and let the lulling winter through

mary angela douglas 2 december 2015

P.S. Help. I have scared myself silly and must think of something cheerful quick. Please do the same yourself. In the second version I went back into the poem (bravely) and threw the coffee cake in and then dashed out the door. It's amazing what a little coffee cake can do.

Tuesday, December 01, 2015

Manifold Stories

you'd miss the music of unexpected weather.
the thunderbolts at noonday.
the bowl of the milk white skies overturned

dispensing seas, you yearned for.
no balm for you in the mild Springs,
you'd cherish April up to your knees in

mud, the rose as afterthought.
the weather fraught you dreamed of.
blizzards at rush hour.

ice storms at tea;
the world like a wedding cake I fancied
by Christmas

viewed from indoors and the heat working.
and with inordinate provender in case.
and manifold stories,

content to explore.

mary angela douglas 1 december 2015