Does Activism View Me As A Number

does activism view  me as a number not a nimbus
or a series of numbers
a means to an end

a derivative a category then,
multiple categories against a variety of spectrums
a fading away from trending
visionary, the last anomalie

a moon in no open sky
it's complicated, they sigh

while I seem

not to be recognized in any particular phase
allowed to take the stage
acknowledged to take the floor
because of the God that I adore in my own way

o way to feign friendship just to get in the door
for the sake of a cause
that cannot Cause me

but pretends to be Santa Claus 
my soul in the balance with trinkets

they do not mind if I opine
so long as they can leave when they want to
and my heart inquires as its own keepsake

left open to brush fires (getting the brush off)
not of my own making
isnt it true my soul 

we have seen all this before
oh yes we know the score
backwards and forwards

though we would not call this music

are words taken down

for a trial I am not party to
useful for furnishing quotes unquoted
no way of being coopted otherwise into the sullen tribe
since so obviously anachronistically

am I perceived

I can hear them think in ringing telepathic tones
as a single celled organism progressively bent and bending
denying all prisms in me since God uttered let there be Light and

because too obviously

the Holy Spirit looms in pale green
in my rooms chartered  as they are
as they will remain

with books of the beautiful
for its own sake shining
soli Deo gloria I whisper to them

you and I surviving

again and again

never to be rescinded
never to be rescinded
never to be rescinded

mary angela dougla 6 march 2020