I Am Not

I am not the news that is on TV
I am not whatever it may be
that is trending now I am not.
nor the formulation nor the sucking up vacuum wise of data
on my particular age group, gender, race, proclivities
sensitivities, low low income.
I am not the product of research.
the variable in the equation you may have replaced God with.

i am not whatever category=coffin=cubbyhole
you and your colleagues itch to shove me into.
to prove to the world your ingenuity.

in figuring it all out.

I am a child of the living God
I am beyond history beyond time I have a soul
beyond responsibility for what is not mine
or anointed by God for me to address to confess;
beyond all reckoning except

the reckoning of time
of time of time
tuned to my own heartbeat lifeline

part of the living tree of mankind

and the living God. beyond all tears
and recriminations;beyond the judgement of man
so do what you can and I will too

tuned to the reasons I am here.

which God foreknew.
and not you. those who have taken upon themselves
truly a role not assigned to them.

mary angela douglas 12 july 2020