Monday, March 15, 2021

Reliving It All

that summer I relived the Caucus Race

the once in the Alice books events and we were given comfits

wrapped in coloured foil but the exchange rate was terrible

we were all young meandering

and an organizing voice from nowhere said now we're all going to run together

and run and run like an invisible conductor of a squawking music

but where I thought so loudly my words almost came out in the open

into little pink balloons and lingered above my head

and got trampled I laughed and said this is not a good idea for short people

no one will see me  (they never do) and I will get stepped on in the grass

who was there to ask suddenly there was in this dream a wonderous transformation

more wished for deeply down than expressed but who cares how it happened;

with little sandwiches of jam and butter suddenly

it happened I ran slightly toward the back of the dream and found myself

in a delicious bookstore, better than caramels in foil quickly finding the section

with the children's books of yesteryear with their charming illustrations

I ran in place while leafing through them and was so happy that i had got out of the stupid race without even

having planned a thing and then I saw children happy as the day who had figured it all out too

who left the trackless track and wandered back and back into the riches

of the heart and mind, into lost time thanks be to God for infinite kindness

for relieving us of blindness

and recovered it irrevocably and all that gipsy music too

and Alice in a frock more rose than blue, a fresh pinafore 

facing a small glass door...


mary angela douglas 16 march 2021



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