Sunday, June 30, 2024

THE BLIZZARD IS WHITE WITH FURY

 

THE BLIZZARD IS WHITE WITH FURY

the blizzard is white with fury

in the foreign novel

you read in the hot summer

trying to get cool

thinking of the blizzard

how difficult for the heroine

you think but you long for a breeze

you dream of ice cubes big as glaciers

swimming in your drink

you fan yourself with japanese fans

splashed with peonies

and sip on lemonade ceaselessly, so as to withstand

this summer

turning another page as if it were snowy drifts

you bury your face in the laureling sleet.

mary angela douglas 30 june 2024


Saturday, June 29, 2024

I SHALL LOWER THE GOLDEN WORDS TO HALF MAST

 

I SHALL LOWER THE GOLDEN WORDS TO HALF MAST

I shall lower the golden words to half mast

When song shall no longer honored be

Among the felicities

I shall weep into the muddied streams of language

Made impoverished

By those who seem to wish It all away

All the lyric poets had to say

The flowering of such feeling

Their tears

at the mauve trees stirring

In such an abbreviated morning

Now that the shearers have come

And I with a covert heart wondering

Why should the world so widowed be

The orchards of such rich thought be razed;

And all amazement stilled.

mary angela douglas 30 june 2024

 


Friday, June 28, 2024

EVERY NIGHT OF THE WORLD

 

EVERY NIGHT OF THE WORLD

Every night of the world

We are falling off in our sleep

Into the mysterious

Deep and soundlessly

We wear new slippers

On a different not so terra firma

Softly learning to say goodbye

Beginning perhaps the long instruction period

And glide like a soul beginning to be

Innured to our distress

Let colors wheel by

And the infinite skies

No longer home or bit by bit

Weaned from it

To wander where the wind

Is causing the stars  to blink

As we blink back tears

Already missing earth

Toddling toward God and

Full of uncertain mirth

mary angela douglas 28 june 2024


THE AFTERLIFE OF HANS CHRISTIAN ANDERSEN

 

 

THE AFTERLIFE OF HANS CHRISTIAN ANDERSEN

 

As if it were not impossible things occur to you now

More vividly than before

Children stitch their shadows together so as to not be lost

In a farther chapter

And where a princess was thought to have disappeared from view

The hills shine crystal and crystal transmogorified

And sea anemones are such a deeper shade of cornflower blue

Than even you in second sight sought

To make them

Things occur to you and it seems more startling somehow

The charm of the stories seeping through into the lives of seraphs now

And the glorified who had forgotten home and weep now almost

inconsolably

For the way the stories unfolded then

Where the wind rustled the pages of books

As though they were roses.

And beauty withstood the fusillades of time

Opening the windows all around

To the lake effect snows of dream

mary angela douglas 28 june 2024


Thursday, June 27, 2024

THE DREAM I HAVE IN STANDING STILL

 

THE DREAM I HAVE IN STANDING STILL

The dream I have in standing still

Draws roots and branches from the air

The singing birds from every realm

The moon in every color displayed

And shape and light and constancy

And silver am I as silver can be

At the center of serenity

mary angela douglas 27 june 2024


Wednesday, June 26, 2024

TO THE LISTENING ONE OUR FATHER

 

TO THE LISTENING ONE OUR FATHER

Who listens with the breath of the wind

Like the tides with the tides incoming and outgoing

Clear transparencies of emerald

So that this catches at your heart

And you a lone bird in a shattered tree

I can hear you listening to me

And your listening has the quality of a music

That will not let me go except to be entirely free

To speak with you in an echoing way the light into the darkness

The cooling waters into the cove.

The opal pavements into galaxies.

The obscure rose into blossoming.

mary angela douglas 26 june 2024


MEADOW FLOWERS YOU HAVE CAUSED TO GROW AT OUR FEET (FINAL VERSION AND FORMATTING)

  

MEADOW FLOWERS YOU HAVE CAUSED TO GROW AT OUR FEET

Meadow flowers you have caused to grow at our feet

Clouds you have massed and coloured fantastically

Above our heads

Trees you have made to show to us rootedness in the earth

And how to branch dreaming among the stars


How is it that we imagine you do not love us

That you do not care what happens

That you wound the watch and forgot it


You never rose up against us in our infancy

In the infancy of your world

Oh that we were still in Eden

There are times on earth in a honeyed light

We suddenly feel that we are

Breathing with you again the emerald air as it was there

Again, You dazzle us.


Without you we would have remained dust or utter nothingness

You did not take the rainbow from the sky

Your imprint fingerprint from our inmost souls

Without you without you

Oh how can we most gracious Lord God


You who have flung your wild and pure heart

Into the universe, in beautiful anguish 

For us in this maelstrom, ever be whole

Come back, to plant the lilies in our souls

in the new Jerusalem.

mary angela douglas 23 june 2024;26 june 2024


Monday, June 24, 2024

SOMEWHERE TODAY BY SOME SMALL STREAM

 

SOMEWHERE TODAY, BY SOME SMALL STREAM

Somewhere today, by some small stream

That bubbleS in a leafy woods a small fern uncurled itself

After the summer rains

This fragrance made the birds sing more

Not a notable event

This wont be on the evening news

Or greatly discussed

But in my wilderness I dream of it

And I know this also happened

Is happening

Is beautiful, and as it should be

mary angela douglas 24 june 2024


Sunday, June 23, 2024

WORDS COULD FALL

 

WORDS COULD FALL

words could fall from great heights

petal soft from the Tree of Heaven

Springtime words, hush thee, sleep my child

Sweet child; words, breezes to

Cradle thee in thy morning sleeping;

Flower scented, the little winds bring only a

whisper of warming sun

Upon you, little one

In dreams it is always this way

That the day is forever breaking;

Their nightfall never comes.

mary angela douglas 23 june 2024

CIRCUMVENTION

 

CIRCUMVENTION

Sometimes I wonder

If the guardian angels of artists

At times hijack the work of art that is turning morose

And tilt it toward the Light laughing

So that suddenly leaden skies over looking the city

Flame up all cerise roses

I don’t know what happened

The artist will say, sing, paint, write, explain

I know I was seeing it all in black and white

But the film came out in colour

Water into wine, sunken into climbed

Elegy on the street converted to hands in the air Praise

When the music skips a beat

And the children start dancing

In the summer sprinklers

All crowned with purple clover from the vacant lots.

mary angela douglas 23 june 2024


MEADOW FLOWERS YOU HAVE PLANTED AT OUR FEET

 

MEADOW FLOWERS YOU HAVE CAUSED TO GROW AT OUR FEET

Meadow flowers you have caused to grow at our feet

Clouds you have massed and coloured fantastically

Above our heads

Trees you have made to show to us rootedness in the earth

And how to branch dreaming among the stars

How is it that we imagine you do not love us

That you do not care what happens

That you wound the watch and forgot it

You never rose up against us in our infancy

In the infancy of your world

Oh that we were still in Eden

There are times on earth in a honeyed light

We suddenly feel that we are

Breathing with you again the emerald air as it was there

Again, You dazzle us

Without you we would have remained dust

You did not take the rainbow from the sky

Your imprint fingerprint from our inmost souls

Without you without you

Oh how can we most gracious Lord God

You who have flung your wild and pure heart

Into the universe, in beautiful anguish 

For us in this maelstrom, ever be whole

Come back, to plant the lilies in our souls

in the new Jerusalem.

mary angela douglas 23 june 2024


Saturday, June 22, 2024

ON A DAY WITH SWEET BUNS

 

ON A DAY WITH SWEET BUNS

On a day with sweet buns

It seemed the wind was coated with cinnamon

Cinnamon sugar 

And a hint of icing on them was close enough to birthday cake icing

To make it feel like it was almost your birthday again

And where were the candles then you almost thought to ask,

laughing

And a little nutmeg in the sweet bread, heaven

On a winter morning where you must wear your winter stockings

To school and a serious jacket though it may be cherry

Even in the South and there is a cranberry tint to the sky

We are wistful for Currier and Ives on tea trays

Because it is probably near Thanksgiving in any case

And so the sky cooperates and you are the gladdest thing

Coming and going from home when the heat vents  are open

And you are warm as toast and the Holy Ghost and Christmas

Are beckoning

Who knows what sweet buns portend…maybe with an orange rind dusting

I imagine,

Even now.

mary angela douglas 22 june 2024


Friday, June 21, 2024

LEMON SKY

 

Who can say with certainty

The lemon sky in the poem is not

A kind of lie by the poet

Who never thought of the sky that way

And if the sky were in fact on the witness stand

It would say so in a cloudy language but nevertheless clear

Or partly clear

In between gales of rain and flights of bluebirds

Under a lemon sky perhaps the poet made a fortune

The sky gets no royalties

Only the satisfaction of knowing

That it can turn to lemon

Anytime the Lord God pleases to make it happen.

and I will raise a glass of iced instant tea

from former days since I may no longer drink tea

With its splash of lemon

And nothing else added

To the sparkling and icy fact that

Yes, this is the truth.

And this poem means what it says

In a delicate way

And this poet loves,

You can and you may be certain, in fact,

The lemon sky.

mary angela douglas 21 june 2024


Thursday, June 20, 2024

THE POETRY TRAIN

 

THE POETRY TRAIN

I like to ride my poetry train

I like its many compartments

In my dreams they are myriad

Some lined with pearl

Others upholstered in stars

Oh you are so gaudy the modern poets say

Don’t care I run this train

Im the conductor and the passenger too

The seats on my train are moss green velvet

While maybe you just make do

With barely a metaphor in view

No hard feelings

On this train we always invite the Romantics

To board

You know the ones in school with which perhaps

You may have been bored

Blake, Wordsworth, Keats and Shelley too

They ride first class

Indeed they do

They don’t spill ash

They don’t bash

They don’t talk trash

They give the clouds dreams to dream on

In the passing scenery

All on board I’d like to say

But it’s just not that way.

Peppermint bay next station

After that, the doll nation.

No cynics here.

This railway’s cleared

To love the lemon drop skies

And not to crack wise

at the Beautiful.

mary angela douglas 20 june 2024


Wednesday, June 19, 2024

ON THE DISAPPEARANCE OF GARCIA LORCA

 

ON THE DISAPPEARANCE OF GARCIA LORCA

For the assassinated poet, Federico Garcia Lorca, incomparable,

Lyric poet and playwright of Spain…

 

Moon my moon

Over the collapsed playhouse

Mise en scene

Moon of melon green

Hung among rafters

Floating above the cherubim

What have they done with him

What have they done with Garcia Lorca

Flee Madrid my soul they told him

Granada too

Elude the shadows for all of them

Have come for you

In the fabled hour their searchlights search for you

Like a razor’s edge parting the night from the night

And it is all the angels can do

To avoid the sight of the execution

In the hour foretold in the gypsy hour

In the hour where the cut bird cries out no more

In the white hour where the Holy Virgin cries

Garcia Lorca, what have they done to you

Your moon floats counterclockwise

And drowns in all the fountains

and she is so wrought

That she weeps lilies and carnations

Into a sea of fragrance like nard, like myrhh

and mourns for awhile

so that the summer skies also lose their blue.

In memory of you

In lamentation for you.

And even now

To the present hour

Ahora en este momento mismo.

mary angela douglas 19 june 2024;20 june 2024


COUNTING TO TEN THE BLUE DUSK BEGINS

 

COUNTING TO TEN THE BLUE DUSK BEGINS

Counting to ten the blue dusk begins

We hide in the silver moon

And no one finds us

And the moon isn’t telling

Free as the wind in the topmost trees

Free as we wanted to be in childhood

And sometimes were

To nibble in dreams the dish of succulent cherries

To ask to be excused from the table of the King

Who just poured cream all over

A day of rampant strawberries and picnics

Where will we not go that the buttermilk sun

Won’t charm us

It’s His kingdom

Let us deck ourselves in all the flowers

The lily and the rose remembered

The iris the morning glories

Neon trumpets of the joys

That cannot be alloyed.

mary angela douglas 19 june 2024


Tuesday, June 18, 2024

ENTER PIERROT, LAUGHING (FINAL REVISION WITH REFORMATTING)

 

ENTER PIERROT, LAUGHING

dusk falls in sepia tones

as it always does in the vintage photographs

but pierrot is a complex subject, even so,

fragile as a sifting snow

is he laughing or crying;


will you ever know

the pinwheel effusions of

his summer epochs;

his heart that sows white rosebuds.


seen from the distance,

you are sure his smile is real

on closer inspection, what does he really feel;


no daguerreotype will ever reveal.


is it the sun after rain or the other way round

a hopscotch falling to the ground

a lamentation of coloured chalks

or in pastels,

is he feeling very well.


he’s out for a walk in infinity

in the beau geste you remember best

in carnival slippers on the moon’s crest

or quivering on a quaking wire…

the crowd to please his one desire


what was it you aspired to..

a long time ago I played La Polichinelle on the piano

was


translated into 

I only paint his mauve bright tears

his small smile of redacted fears

his penny bright forays…

 

perceptive angels, do what you must

guard his tremors, cherish his dust

I cannot find him.

mary angela douglas 1 april 2021;2 april 2021;

23 june 2022;24 august 2022;18 june 2024


Monday, June 17, 2024

TEARS OF SLEEPING BIRDS (FINAL REVISED VERSION)

 

 

TEARS OF SLEEPING BIRDS

[de lacrimis Christi

tears of sleeping birds this evening I heard or read
from the National Geographic blurb, tears of sleeping
birds on rare occasions…

moths sip the tears of sleeping birds in Brazil.
do they get their fill I wondered of salt,
of the disappeared too early.

it seemed so fairy tale real, disturbing
embroideries wrung from a fanciful tree
miraculously inferred; subconsciously
a wilderness resonance brought to bloom
vibration set, to crystal tuned and shattering

to one gold leafed in an
unsettling country
milk and honey dried

where something dear has died
where coral moths are sought
and seldom caught sipping the
tears of sleeping birds

what do the birds dream then.,
that there is no more sorrow
in the world?
or the utmost burglary possible
has been sanctioned.

the heart is a lake that rises
for the small bird fluttering in its sleep
incapable of the grief necessary.
who will deliver me now
from the fugitive years ahead
where nothing more can be said, referred to
but “the tears of sleeping birds…".

shall we quaff a thimbles worth
for everything on earth, for
what remains in that refrain-

o surely there will
be contravening years...

that suddenly am I reminded of
a trembling name or two;

an exquisite residue
dewdrop pulsed and tremulous on a branch
as if it were Song:
before the sign of the dark sun;

Nadezhda Mandelstam
speaking of herself and Akhmatova
after Osip had gone said,in those days we had no tears left…
trembling over a handful of poems
the moths, drinking their tears.
the moths, drinking their tears.

mary angela douglas 24 january 2019;rev. 17 march 2019;
22 may 2024;17 june 2024

THE BEAUTY OF WHAT IS DIFFICULT (REPOSTED)

 

THE BEAUTY OF WHAT IS DIFFICULT

the beauty of what is difficult
flows far beyond our hands 
it bubbles in streams


where there are no fish

no container can contain it


you don't even wish for it
you wouldn't know what to call it
and wishes must have names
to be pinned like butterflies
in a landscape where even
the clouds can't move

oh but it's not on anyone's map


or payroll

but descends like some green dream


dead-center in midwinter
and you, you were so drear

or like snow when you


thought, "swelter"


swift and instantaneous
though you watched for it by
your sad windows long

centuries


unbidden by even

the quickest, dearest knowledge


eluding the heart to the point of
despair
then doubling back the
difficulty of what is beautiful,
the poem, among other things, unsaid.


walking backwards into your new


life you thought with trepidation brighter
and better than before than

any precarious, quicksilver, late-lamented


but do not lament or brace
yourself for really bad news
it's too diamond-flecked it's marigold undimmed
this, ever after forever will be

spliced on a reel


that we're not turning

just this beautiful


just this difficult

my friend

mary angela douglas 24 july 2008

Sunday, June 16, 2024

THEY SHALL NOT STEAL THE SHINE FROM THE WATER

 

THEY SHALL NOT STEAL THE SHINE FROM THE WATER

They shall not steal the shine from the water

Nor siphon wild mint from the cooling breeze

Nor bring to any heart’s content again

The restiveness of their unease

Again we hear the thunder from the hills

And view the rainless lightning like a stage propped play

And in our dreams we feel conscripted

By those who would bait the heart in us astray.

Let the stars be true though painted over

Let the earth be green

Though ploughed under

Let all the seeming carry the day

The Lord will take it all away.

mary angela douglas 16 june 2024


IT'S MANGO GOLD IN THE SUPERMARKET OF DREAMS (REPOSTED)

  

IT'S MANGO GOLD IN THE SUPERMARKET OF DREAMS

it's mango gold in the supermarket of dreams
that keeps recurring with a juke song sheen
or it's strawberry kiwi tarts for the dollhouse queen

or the fizz of the raspberry pop on the run
you liked a lot when you were young
it's the wall of clementines, the orange rind candies,

marzipan and caramel flan

or gold pieces missing from the sun
foil wrapped chocolate, every one
come see that it's the mango of your

dreams and the pure sure apricot nectar prize
or fill your baskets with the
bakery surprise the cake of

all cakes dressed up in whipped cream
with the lemon rosettes the dulce con leche scene
and oh you bet the breakfast hash

supreme in supersized cans
the vintage hams and the onions, peppers strung
and the whole thing in coloured lights

when the sun comes down on the bodega
and the angels hum by the ounces
it's saturday night with cerise flounces

it's mango gold in the supermarket of dreams

mary angela douglas 22 march 2017;21 may 2024

Saturday, June 15, 2024

THE WHITE LANE (FINAL REVISION)

 

THE WHITE LANE

I saw in a vision of sifting snows
the white lane leading unto Light
and I in the thick of it

wordless, without song.
and then the luminous upswing
of the fated birds breaking into

singing, Song after long wars,
the scars, diminishing.
how long I stood, seeing that it was good

and the dream all drifted down
as though in a globe of snow
I had found my calling.

how can I tell you
who may not want to know 
that the hour of the white lane had

come upon me, God's hands
being overfilled with blossoming.
and I, no longer afraid, disabused

a utility

where the hedgerows broke
into a rose incandescence
never before seen or perfumed.

there, at the lands end of ruins
in a minor acropolis shining.

mary angela douglas 7 march 2016;15 june 2024

REMEMBERING THE COLOR OF SNOW (FINAL VERSION)

  

REMEMBERING THE COLOR OF SNOW

I remember the color of snow in certain paintings

out of the long ago,pearlescent and wistfully I do recall

the roselight falling across the canvas

the hidden light revealed the inner rose and the outer

becoming one distinction as Dante knew

the point of view no longer in vogue

I remember it do you or snow as azure, as gold as mauve

as the fielding of small questions to the sparrow on my

left hand

bad art is the endless revealing of things I reprimand

almost my sparrow laughs I

said to my sparrow, the one on my right hand who can understand

the princess in exile surveying the dissolving lands

making ragged suppositions

and wintering through odd dispositions

hiding in song unmitigated exile from

the beauty of the colours of snow;

the  State's matte finishings of all that was

falling aslant of all predictability

and lamenting that 

no one remembers them now.

the melted languages.smashed up kaleidoscopes reeling

the words for all we felt then.

mary angela douglas 23 april 2021;21 may 2024;15 june 2024


Friday, June 14, 2024

THE KITCHEN MAID REMEMBERS THE EMPEROR'S NIGHTINGALE (FINAL REVISION)

 

THE KITCHEN MAID REMEMBERS THE EMPEROR'S NIGHTINGALE

once more I stand
before the palace wall
my chores half-finished

to hear the nightingale singing
as if it were
the last time at the dim window
and all the little griefs compounded

and the storm clouds
above the Emperor's chamber
turn into fields of
white violets before my eyes.

then I envision a
ladder of jewels, exquisite notes near the veranda
I could scale to anywhere and
no one could lure me back;
and glancing down

my plain apron
breaks out into embroidery
under the spell

enchantment's heart procures;

the Emperor hangs onto life,
his every sigh worth half-a-kingdom,
and the hidden trill is everywhere now:
it settles slightly in my heart
as if it mattered that a
twig could break.

colour washes back into the scene
well-played - down and down the cherry sought
gardens on towards the riverbank of lost delights
beyond-

the fine-edged iridescence
of a small departure only I noticed.

I never heard music like that again
though I lived on:
sifting the snapdragon shadows
on gold-dimmed afternoons;

calling to God when the willow-ware dusk
poured into clouds of the white jade
bidding the firefly angels goodbye-
and the imperial shade.

mary angela douglas 22 october 2010;14 june 2024

FOR DYLAN THOMAS IN THE DARK BLUE DUSK, IN THE GILDED DUST OF WORDS (FINAL VERSION REVISED EXTENSIVELY)

 

FOR DYLAN THOMAS IN THE DARK BLUE DUSK, IN THE GILDED DUST OF WORDS

for the poet Dylan Thomas (27 October 1914 – 9 November 1953)

 

as you were singing that the givers of Light

would have no end that the green rills

growing greener would furl in waves

about us ever near from our Eden's remembered

blossoming and the Christ tonged bells

and that the sun dipped in the clouds down low

would ever arise because in poetry its blazing

more than survives a thing you thought not even

necessary to say

somewhere farther beyond your white roads' chrism

we forgot that poetry is not prose 

and no longer gathered the rose upon rose

the once upons. even the dooms of men so praised

so that the prismed web broke

apart weeping and with it the human heart

my heart and where

and what and how in Art will the angels come

to trouble the springs again my friend

so that healing descends and with it

the rustling drifting page illuminated

dappled with apple boughs with the sprouting

of gold and undimmed

when your voice is stilled

when the news is all we know

I cannot comprehend

only that vaguely

blue and darker blue with the dusk

as your disguise the village from afar

you'll view in dreamy profusion muted

and weep for Wales and all you knew

for all that meant to you.

and we go casting about in sighs

Mere ghosts of ourselves

forgetting what you knew.

that bright words, should not be spare


but myriad, like the stars.

mary angela douglas 24 november 2016; 22 october 2021;14 june 2024