A Cream-Coloured Sigh From God And...

a cream coloured sigh from God and

it began to snow.

oh my white valentine unscrolling

the only one

from pole to pole

yet just for me it's hushed its filmy

twirling in space, ballerina like

with the redolence of heavenly lace

vanished into the ballet blanc

and the chill parfait of a sky layered

pink and violet, light blue

a lemon curd yellow striped between

won't you stay for tea

I'll unwrap the Little Debbie cakes

frosted white (inside they're pink)

I was going to buy but I bought Tennyson

instead on abe books...the Complete Poetical

Works of...

now sleeps the crimson heart in a white

petaled border we'll have

snow cream instead

there's so much of it everywhere

mary angela douglas 14 february 2014

Pale Pink Camellia Addressing The Soul Of Dumas

to Alexandre Dumas, asleep over the manuscript of The Lady of the Camellias...

why of all flowers was I chosen for tragedy.

did I linger near your childhood

did your mama pick huge bouquets of me

or did you in a looking glass moment

overcast, decide against the rose:

too often used in allegory,

against the iris, too remote

God knows you couldn't pick a weed,

wild flowers are best, they really care less

what poet weaves them in and out of

the song or the chorus, only.

they're so folkloric.

thank God for pete seeger kindly

choosing the generic.

Dear Monsieur, your heroine was great.

I am a waxen pale pink flower in distress.

where is my story?

mary angela douglas 13 february 2014

Poem In Deep Winter/Dream Of The Baker's Daughter

white chocolate shredded snows enhanced

the Cake of her dreams

but it tasted like pink and green

with a hint of the orange

you drew out of the Christmas stocking toe

thinking gifts were over now.

oh may it snow in candied wonder

for those who are famished

over long time

who yearn for the trumpets and the silver

flourish: their names in silver (edible) beads

across blue silks of a summer sky

mary angela douglas 13 february 2014

Goodbye, Shirley Temple In The Lollipop Ship Absconding

goodbye, Shirley Temple, in the lollipop ship absconding

(it may be) with the last elusive charms of childhood

oh goodbye I remember you best

grown up and hostess of the Fairy Tale Theatre

in gold and pink frothy gowns delineating

"this magic space" before my 8 year old eyes

(they had to be pink: I decoded the black and white)

the diplomat of faerie and

your storybook with its border of roses, birds,

and crowns on pages I lived in like a

secret house within a house. 

or in Heidi, happy at home with the Grandfather

singing and making your bed of straw already

golden, no need for spinning then.

or in sweet replica, my sister's doll in pink and blue organza

I threw one day in a fit and then repented

I was so untrue but true again God heard

me say: I love my sister truly and we

were colouring again the day in which

our living room tv zebra striped and then

working again would show (and we'd drop

everything)

Little Miss Marker, Now and Forever

forever, honour bright and later Bluebird bright,

many years after you acted your heart out

missing the ruby slippers by a mile

but stalwart.

what is art but the blending of lollipop colours

seen through the long ago at best? goodbye, Shirley

Temple, be at rest

amid many flowers

and my small bouquet

mary angela douglas 11 february 2014

Blue Starred In The Blue Grass Spring Lullay

[to e.e. cummings]

blue-starred in the blue grass

bell floating are the flowers

in the land of before not after

blue starred is the laughter

of the small clouds above the

sunlit,

violet strewn and is the moss

beside all else in green velveteens

right up to the small oak door

of the fairy queen invisible?

so it seems in

the blue starred in the blue grass

in the cream of the day frothing over

the rim the deep blue rim

of the before not after

of the wafting of the white rosed

in the bubbling of forever just

starting to be

a little blue starred (sleepy, aren't you)

in the blue grass almost

tumbling over into april

that can't exactly walk yet

floating with little stars and dreams

toppling over into the

pink mysterious

mary angela douglas 11 february 2014 

I Saw The White Knight Shining In A Farther Dream

to Lewis Carroll

I saw the white knight shining in a farther dream

said Alice, over the turnstile and he was not

as broken as before mused Alice.

I have no defense, he said.

and bowed his head where the silver birds

had nested forgetting how to sing oh so

at home.

have you wandered too? he asked me.

how could I say when I saw the castles in the distance

not that far away

mary angela douglas 8 february 2014

I Want To Find The Gold Lining Of The Lines

I want to find the gold lining of the lines

thought Ellen Terry while the world is mine-

and do blossoms fall down the balcony scene

or is it the shadow of snows to come

freezing the heart suddenly?

I could turn to other things

housekeeping, the stars,

keeping the galaxies in order

except that the draperies of odd speeches

will not leave me until I dream them all aloud.

forgive me Shakespeare:

anyone at all caught sliding down the banisters

of the fustian stage should realize

Time cannot be cheated of

the best role in the end

who puts to sleep

ah very deeply through negligent ages

oh dearth of merriment and the greenwood

rhymes-can no one hear?

the golden lining of all the lines

I have ever found on earth.

mary angela douglas 5 february 2014

Leading The Children Home Through A Blue Washed Twilight

leading the children home through a blue washed twilight

I wished that I could be

their fairy godmother at the very least perhaps

the founder of the feast.

as it is written.

it was lily painted on the moonlight, covers

of a book I used to know that

wishing was a possible thing

the only career I ever wanted.

so God, too, when he tipped the roses

melon coloured, baby pink in dew 

must have realized how it would feel

because he wished it so

the first time we breathed roses

all by ourselves

when the world was spanking new

mary angela douglas 5 february 2014

There Is The Children's Miscellany Under Glass

there is the children's miscellany under glass

the chocolate eclairs and lady fingers creamed

at the bakery across time in the elegant striped paper sack.

contained is the miniscule snowstorm

glazed on the baby doughnuts.

I wander through old book reports

watching the dolls behave in odd pink silk

or bon-bon pastel fresh

in every sheen or sunrise

of an antique cradle, oversized.

I want to buy new parasols

from the paintings of Monet

in the scarlet meadows

 under summer skies

am I too late? for the hand-print in plaster of

Paris you hung on the lavender wall.

oh, I'm still small.

the door bell chimes

and I am in.

a pound of lemon drops, I dream,

Three Musketeers

but cannot say to the ghosts minding the store;

a dress embroidered with roses or a sky in a white

cardboard box with gold flecked tissue paper

or a hill I used to know and watched the others

go down it may be or was this imagined: glossy

magazine picture-perfect, scissored;rainy day pasted

with a thick brush into a brown paper scrapbook just

facing the page with postcards from the universe

tinted in spectral vermillion, aqua, peach and green.

hair ribbons to match

o my dear

not crated yet; on the corner table:

among dainty things

one fan of paper poppies splashed beside the

piano grand creased ivories

of a music, Grandmother, I

have not forgotten; on a February day

the peach ice cream homemade,

cranked up to such exhilaration or

we're drinking colas down a dusk-lit road

(deep summer, now)

straight from the suburb wonderland we lived in

revisiting the farm of near relatives or snow-coned in-

near dark green lakes

and I am glassed in still in my mid-winters holding on

each time the music box replays my

sense of the golden turning or spearmint, blue grass tipped

with notes of the gardenia, sweet-pea nosegays from some past your

old perfumes unstoppered...we tried every one

while you were teaching piano

in the studio off the living room

and we were home from school at 3:20 reveling,

sprigged in the freshness of the folded linen the

clove pomanders the magnolia intensities

brought indoors to compensate the soul in cool

beauty reverenced quietly or enamoured of the yellow glass

candy jar hard candy beribboned, raspberry, orange

at the center of the Sun, the  lollipop one,

olde fairytales placed end to end 

will gild the orbit of something

in the word problems

I'm still practicing

and can't be done with ever

mary angela douglas 4 february 2014;revised, 7 february 2014

Rip Van Winkle Sends Regrets

[to Washington Irving]

the whole world has gone by

and can he rethread the broken threads

not knowing who cut the strings of the

rainbow flossed or bobbled the bobbin-

or ever find in amber

what could not be preserved

so much has changed.

even the leaves.

even the flowers on the hillsides

look at him strangely

and who are you

the petals sigh

and why have you returned

whisper the perinneals flaming out;

nor will they crown him purple clover chain- on-chain,

King of what he no longer surveys.

it burns in the mind

that cannot calculate

what has been lost

while dreaming underground

half-drenched in the lily snows

of a faint moon in a distant sky

of the charmed who no longer live here.

of the weddings' finery held for ransom

kettle on the hob scuttled

of the flights down the canyons, precipitous and blind of

the wingless shimmering birds of time.

mary angela douglas 4 february 2014

Carnival Music All The Time

["He led captivity captive..."

Ephesians 4:7-8, The Holy Bible]

carnival music all the time

was moving the sunsets' ferris

only so far into

the clouds tipped with rubies,

emeralds, a sense of flight always

beginning again

from the ground, then stifled.

I held the hand of the wind

and couldn't look down

and wished for wings

my God

they tore them off

and just kept moving

to the organ grinding sound

ground into the soul

you know what that is.

you know but it's not sunset after all

when rose and lemon and mint

keep reappearing with a shake of your

pure kaleidoscope undefiled; the violet fugue

I listened to when I was free when I was awake,

before I knew them.

it's drifting through the waltzes of Chopin

and the blessed horizons now

where they've all left town finally

deserting the interiors.

that God has not disappeared

from the equation of the new made clouds

the stars-in-waiting and the

mother of pearl fault lines in

this evening breeze

mary angela douglas 4 february 2014

Exiled To Find The Quick Notes Gathering In The Breeze

exiled to find the quick notes gathering in the breeze

and quickening and this is music cried the poets

yeer on year derided. how could they be

full of pride drinking the gall of wordless centuries.

exiled to find that Music went before their exile

greening the woods that seemed so desolate

viewed from far

viewed from far no one would think them brave

or even alive but they did not dwell where they

were thought to: locked and shunned

but from the least sunbeam on the jailer's floor

made light, more light

into their setting suns

mary angela douglas 2 february 2014

Losing The Rain On The Roof

losing the rain on the roof we dream in cinder-blocks

of a roof made of stars and infinity

green trees willowy in a large meadow

large ballrooms where the soul can dance

and not be found out

losing the rain on the roof I cried

I tried to find the way back.

I miss the sound of it more than music

more than music

without the words

mary angela douglas 30 january 2014

A TRIBUTE TO PETE SEEGER. GOODBYE, DEAR RIVER SINGER.

It seems like he was always there in the background somehow, one of those American fixtures that seem
so familiar, so comfortable like a worn out shoe, but in his case like a worn out shoe that mystically, never wears out. Like a fairytale, folktale kind of person but- a person that is really like that, not by design, but just by breathing in and out, like water flowing is just water.  A stone rolling down a hill is a stone rolling.  A tree in the wind is a tree in the wind. No subterfuge.  No posing.

And when you heard him, and I did, throughout my childhood here and there on tv, and later, in
documentaries and finally, in Washington D.C. in 1983 at a human rights rally on the Mall, you had a feeling just like that.  Like you were in a story he was singing, you were part of the story he was singing and you were happy to be and comforted like a child hearing the story, being the story and always, at his invitation, singing along.

In a country half-mad with rebranding itself every other minute it is refreshing to remember how he was
with his banjo just walking up and commencing to play.  No fanfare.  No preliminaries.  Just like the
clouds drift and you watch them and you feel better.

Pete Seeger didn't have to rebrand himself.  What he was was good enough.  An American in his own way, a singer in his own rhythms.  Steadfast.  A lovely tune you couldn't get out of your head, but then, why would you want to.  The news article I read online said he didn't like
the term folk singer.  Call me a river singer he said.  He flowed like a river indeed, unobtrusively, but needed in the landscape.

How we will miss him.

mary angela douglas 28 january 2014

P.S. The article that referenced Pete Seeger's preference for being called a river singer is by
Bob Minzesheimer of USA Today.

The Broken Chinaware Of The Exceeding Dream

[after seeing the mosaics, and mixed-media of Priscilla Williams, January 27, 2014, Forsyth  County Central Library, Winston-Salem, North Carolina]

the broken chinaware of the exceeding dream

sets face up in the mire of gold unseen but felt.

it's raining permanent tulips

roses down the sky

on the lady in green beneath delft Blue 

I wonder why we didn't see her before

where the clouds don't move nor does the 

sun; it's almost heaven rose-tipped in a frame

that cannot break again and newlywed

when ladies with amethyst wings just sprouting

half-dance against the blue and white tile

to qualify as shy, happy angels in training

Here springtime does not lie

because it cannot change what it is.

chipped sapphire,

it's all coming back to you when

she holds time in her careful hands:

making something beautiful

out of the shattered, piecemeal,

musical as Sundays

mary angela douglas 27 january 2014

Rose Pink Flamingo Flurries Over Africa

[on Nikolai Gumilev, a brief cadenza-]

Rose pink flamingo flurries over Africa

he might have seen, if he had lived

a son grown taller, deeper, not displaced-

still not following Anna anyway perhaps

at times repeating what he said before

oh, you should take up the ballet

returning later to find fresh fairytale scraps

bound up in no ribbons, scattered on the floor

and changeling, the tawny glints in cloisonne

jeweled combs that weren't there before o

trist bisque doll with the books all sold

and very little left; in a ragged shawl she might

have been, still adorned with red roses fading into

old silk but

she's no longer home, the one he left in worn down

slippers floated  a queen slightly foreign to him

a girl who wept flowers and stars

at the least provocation.

singing.

Africa, he sighed and was off again.

how would her verse have altered-

if he had lived- with so much absence,

so much more, filling up with snows

and Mandelstam, the same-

still haunted, haunting the pavements where

they used to roam watching the Neva in the cold

fill up with raspberry lights, little clouds and poems

commemorating in advance

the later lamentations

unaccountable joy

mary angela douglas 26 January 2014

My Faberge Egg Is Hatching Little Stars

my faberge egg is hatching little stars,

cut crystal-

whole cherry orchards unrazed

of a creamy pink that's inscribed

with thoughts on raspberry wings

in fine detail

etched

somnolent summer, grain gold

lime-leafed avenues and in the distance

ruby trains tunneling through the

mountains to the village where it's

always snowing but everyone's used to it

a fine diamond  snow.

so no one starves and is always singing

my little village, pearl encrusted;

pale green emerald of my birches-

live!

mary angela douglas 26 January 2014

When You Are Finished With The Colouring Books

[to Eugene Field for his lovely, long-ago poem "The Sugar Plum Tree" and a world-wide plea for a return to former inclusiveness (where the culture of mankind is concerned)]

when you are finished with the colouring books

it will be time to inherit everything of beauty,

worth. even calico hand-me-downs

and every nightingale perched in the

pale green anthology in my Grandmother's

living room bookcase in pale gilt letters

spelled out on the spine: "World Poetry" I never

learned to keep it separate all those colours

bleeding into each other in the margins of

my mind sitting in my Grandfather's chair

turning the myriad pages of what  was called

in school, then, the universal canon of

mankind

why are we going backwards colouring in

the lines of our designated tribes alone-

even if, in bright colours and

with the thickest crayons...

when will you find again in quietness

tracing the rainbow's declensions:  all jeweled

iterance tolls for  thee for thee

and crystal clear.

in every epoch peach bright speech streams a

destined loveliness my friends in the mystical orchard

and more besides, look up and see

beyond the dusted off refurbished opalescence strung

in your particular evening sky and neighborhood

the candied stripings of infinitude rustle in leaves in

your own mind these

letters from the long ago in diamond spidery handwriting

laden and windfall falling from the sugarplum trees

for thee, for thee and thine;

you live in that realm

if you want to...

mary angela douglas 26 January 2014

Why Should You Say Simply What You Can Spell Out In Stars

why should you say simply

what you can spell out in stars

in time lapsed roses in a

magic garden surprise oh

surprise at the birthday

wishes, wishes for (don't say it) realized

but through an unforeseen door

a window left ajar

and there are Peter Pan and

the others trailing their

sparkles behind them for

us to garner still

for garnet on garnet's

scattered in the skies

if you can find the right

word for it otherwise

it's just plain purple

not even purpereal

good enough for some

and never damson, plum

or white violets sighed the

princess finding them first

in the April woods before

her companions

everyone knows who knows this

that the birds keep flinging roseate roseate roseate

into the aurora, not the sunrise.

oh burst upon us silverly, lost demanding music

rose on vivid rose new crown-ed damask:

we are half-sick of prose

mary angela douglas 26 January 2014

Victoriana

is this the map made out of mist

the one the children lost

on their way to the blue mountains?

here is the spot where they ate their

last peppermints, butterscotch, lemon drop

and the bright foil wrappers glinting in the sun

an SOS

to someone small

to anyone at all

there's the place they found fresh water

and washed their faces in dim

starlight hardly lighting the path

to the Other side

and here's the arbor where

they told each other stories

waiting for help to come-

there, the shadow of famine, war

of small things left undone

of the illumination of sudden fevers

of ribbons untied on presents

imagined by their mothers

silver wishes foundered golden ones

spiced gumdrops

here's the cache of rubies they left behind

and in the phantom snow, bird tracks of

sparrows bringing them bright berries bright berries

in their beaks and songs

and here the trail disappears

where the guardian angels loom with peach bright wings

tinged with violet leaning over the children

in the rickety  rowboat...

the still waters

where the angels bore them away

as in fine prints that hung on

the rose paper walls papered over with sighs

of the Great Houses

long, o long ago

mary angela douglas 24 January 2014

Returning To The Tower We Sought To Win

[to Matthew Arnold, Robert Browning, and Alfred Lord Tennyson-

and all the others before and after...in every country and language]

"The Sea of Faith

Was once, too, at the full..."

-Matthew Arnold, Dover Beach

returning to the tower we sought to win

gaily your pennants floating on the wind;

the mind renewed

where vintage valentines were stored

since no one needed anymore

the hearts of those who thought before

long golden thoughts

in an ivory scene derailed-

for what?

returning to the tower we sought to breathe

above the innocence of trees, beyond the snowed in Park  still

newly green as we were when we first loved

them.

whatever stole them and our time

we will forget and learn to rhyme again

under the inconstant moon

or in blank verse lose this wilderness

and swear new constancy to Him:

Christ of all poetry; they knew-

without flinching at the name.

.

returning to the tower

let there be balm in picture books again

and evensong and starlight unadulterated.

the poets now in shadow once wrote in this sun

and they were true.

we will remember you, your light

the sudden sorrow of your flights

the useless defamation down the years.

the colours of your songs will paint

this modern quest

for Beauty wronged

and we will sing;

unashamed and free, though ridiculed

and jewel on jewel the peerless cantos learn, prolong

so meant for earth as Heaven indeed down to the last breath

and margins of the sea of song 

of faith of hearts

no longer empty

mary angela douglas 23 january 2014